Fic: Ambiguity

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Title: Ambiguity
Author: Nox
Fandom: West Wing
Pairing: Josh/Sam
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Don't own it, not mine. No offence or liability intended
Warnings: Slash
Summary: They had no beginning, they just were. 

Josh isn’t sure he can pinpoint a start to this, to whatever this unexplained thing is between him and Sam.

 

Sure he can tell you the first time they kissed (terrified-elated after they won the nomination, surrounded by the Governor’s smiling face and drowned by the crowd), the first time either of them got each other off (in a hotel room in buttfuck nowhere, beds crisp hotel nothingness and Sam’s hand so very hot on his cock), or the first time they fucked (Josh’s face pressed into Sam’s oh so fashionable bedspread, back sweat slick, Sam folded across it).

 

But that didn’t feel like the start of anything, their first kiss felt nothing like a beginning, it felt like a continuing. As Sam’s lips had met his, hand curling around the back of Josh’s neck, toying with the curls, it felt as though they had done it every day of their lives.  

 

It feels as if they have been this entity, this whole for their entire lives and only looking back can Josh see it.